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The Painful Utterance

from The Mournful Utterance by Varanak

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lyrics

In the night I realize that I
Push away all who I love.
In the act of self preservation.
To defend against loves mutation!

Everyone deserves happiness, but I.
The inside of my heart yearns for love but I reject it
Because I do not deserve what they have to offer me.

As hard as I try to break down these walls.
They only grow higher, with each kiss my love.
A push to contact is a push to suicide
Then I crawl back towards the light!

Everyone deserves happiness, but I.
The flames rise higher, the walls go up, I will push you all away.
And if you try to get inside my heart, I'll tear you up tear by tear!

This time I swear to you I won't show any emotion back.
Do not attempt to break me from my hell, I do not need to see the light.
This burning hate I hold for myself, lives eternally inside.
Now only in the end will I love again when I've died.

Nobody will understand.
I will not see your love as positive.
Everyone deserve happiness...but I
Why?

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from The Mournful Utterance, released February 18, 2022

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